Getting the Baby Bug

I have always known that I wanted to be a mom and experience pregnancy. Just to feel that precious little life growing and moving inside me! Geez, I get excited just thinking about it!!! However, Jill has absolutely no desire to be pregnant but she definitely does want to be a mom. So I will be the baby making machine in our relationship, which I am thrilled about! So we took the first step in beginning the crazy baby making journey in November of 2004 with a Reproductive Endocrinologist located in Evansville, IN. We were aware that most couples are not successful the first time, so our first unsuccessful cycle really didn't come as a surprise. We immediately tried again in December and our chances looked very good, with 12 little follicles in their ready to be fertilized. However that cycle was once again unsuccessful. It was upsetting, but I still felt like it would happen soon. We decided to wait until March/April to try again and scheduled a procedure called an HSG in February to check my fallopian tubes and uterus to make sure things were working properly. This wasn't a very pleasant experience, but the results did show a little blockage in my tubes, which was taken care of. So we felt confident that our next try would be successful since that was taken care of and when April rolled around we were ready for Cycle #3! Once again our chances looked pretty good but we still did not get pregnant. This time, the results hit me a little harder and made me wonder if I could even get pregnant. So Jill and I discussed moving on to injectibles and thought that might help our chances. It was an expensive move, but still less than adoption or IVF. So we set up Cycle #4 in September of 2005, and we used the injectible Repronex to increase our chances of conception. We had our insemination on the 30th, but I started my period on October 14th so we knew it did not work again. I started doing some more research to see what else could be wrong. Of course, I looked for any possible answer to the problem- diet, exercise, weight, etc... I also thought that I had several symptoms of Endometriosis and came to find out that my mom had Endometriosis when she was trying to get pregnant with my little brother. In the back of my head, I knew God had a plan for us and we had to be patient, but the waiting was killing me! So we decided to save money for a couple months and start fresh in February of 2006. During that time, I scheduled a Laparascopy so the doctor could look in my body and see if something was medically wrong. I went in for the procedure on February 24th and I must say it was an excellent experience. The doctors and nurses were wonderful and Jill took such great care of me. One of our friends even took off work to be with Jill while I was in surgery. While I was there a nurse also informed me of another doctor that is extremely successful in our area. Once I got to feeling better we set up a consultation and began the process with a new doctor-- Dr. Bonaventura. We used a different injectible and protocol for Cycle #5 and a few weeks later, lots of pregnancy tests, and one blood test we found out we were pregnant!! We called everyone we knew and told them the wonderful news!!! Just the thought of our baby growing inside me was so awesome!! Each day I would touch my belly and just imagine the wonderful family we would be! We had a repeat appointment to check my bloodwork and make sure my beta numbers were rising as they were supposed to. After the third visit, the numbers did not continue to rise as they should in a viable pregnancy and ultimately I miscarried the baby. This was one of the most emotional experiences I had ever gone through. We went back to the doctor and it was recommended that I be given a shot of Methotrexate to help the process along so I didn't have to go through the long natural process of it all. This was a good decision for us because the lingering and constant testing was just so overwhelming. Jill and I discussed what we wanted to do next and decided that it would be best if we took some time to heal and take a break from the whole roller coaster ride of TTCing (Trying To Concieve).